Lucky

My heart hurts and feels so empty right now. The love of my life my male cat Lucky just shy of 13 years old passed away on 7/11/2020. I feel so empty and at a loss. Someone mentioned the quietness. I listen for the tiptoeing through the house, the cuddles and warmth. When i wake up at 5am waiting for him to follow me around but that didnt happen today. I cant imagine life without you but yet i must go on. My cat was older than two of my youngest kids. Since January my furbaby suffered from nasal polyps that traveled to his brain. After surgeries, medications and other measures he decided he had enough. The pain was too much for him along with the struggling to breath. And who was I to selfishly keep him here because i relied on him. Because i loved him so and didnt want to be without him. I laugh and cry as i go through his pictures. Im in shock because i wasnt prepared he was in agony yesterday with pain to the touch and nose bleeds. I had to euthanize him yesterday and i came home empty handed. I adopted him in Cincinnati OH 12 years ago at the age of 6 weeks and he has traveled everywhere with me. He was apart of our family and he is forever in my mind and my heart. I was so blessed and “lucky” to have him in my life all these years. He was truly loved and i miss him so much. I pray that God gets me through this and that it gets easier day by day. My heart goes out to anyone that has chosen to love a furbaby. We all know the day is coming but when it does its always too soon. I pray that one day i get to see him and we cross the Rainbow Bridge together. God Bless.