Tessie

I don’t think I can come up with the words to describe my feelings today. Today, William Fidler and I lost our Tessie Fidler.
Tess has been fighting Heart Failure since mid May. I have a special peace because she died with us both, at home. She wasn’t alone, wasn’t in a vets office, she was in her own home looking up at the trees for one last gecko. I am also left with such a hole in my heart. She was the funniest and most loving dog ever. She really did have a personality. Many don’t know that I was firmly against getting a dog. After Billy & I had 7 miscarriages, I gave in and we found Tess. She was the wrong color for a Jack Russel and the runt of her litter… I loved her instantly. She has truly been “our Baby”. I’m lost, sad, but glad she is not suffering. I’m mad that I only got 9 years. She gave us unconditional love and a whole lot of attitude. I already miss her and don’t know if I will feel “Tessie good” again. No more wagging nub tail, no more greeting me when I get home, no more licking all the bad day off of my face, no more stealing beer, no more barking at any sound… I’d give anything to hear a bark, one of her “quacks, growls, or one of her conversations.
Yes, I love my dog….. more than most people… I miss you already, Tess…. how will I rub those ears???